The Moments When I took the Wrong Decisions

It started out as a ordinary day, but as soon as I missed the bus, it became a nightmare. Later that day I had to hand in a paper which I forgot at home becase of how rushed I had left hte house. I had also forgoten that we had a test to take in math class and had not studied one bit.

In the third grade I had tied my shoelace to a desk and was late by twenty minutes to music class. My teacher had sent an e-mail home, and as soon as I got home I saw my mother stsnding by the door waiting to scold me. At that moment I realized that I was doomed.

If only I had chosen to buy a different dog, I would live with a peaceful yard and with no worries or fear of my dog.

My Boring Life

My life is anyting but intresting. My family, soccer and school are the only things that I care about. I always get easily boared.

My Roles

I have always loved being in charge. Maybe I have always loved being in charge becuase at home my sister would always boss me around when my parents where not around. She would tell what to do and waht not to do as if she was my mother. So being a leader is my only chance to be in charge. I often get bossy when I am trying to be a leader because I like everyone to do as I say and be organized. When I do this I feel important, respected and respondible; I feel as if people looked up to me.

Since I could remember I was always trying to avoid talking to anyone besides my family. I was afriad of speaking, shaking hands or even eye contact with someone I did not know well. I do not know why I was so shy or felt this way, maybe I was afriad of being made fun of. When ever someone would come over to my parents to say hello, I would hide behind my mother. In kindergarten I was even afraid of asking the teacher to go to the bathroom, I would either wait for reccess or wait until I got home.

I have lost countless jackets, shirts, sweaters, pencilcases in my childhood. I have always been the absentminded person of the family. Every time I got back from school my mother would scold me becuase I had lost or forgotten yet another sweater at school. Once I was so distracted that I even left my backpack at school. In several octions I have borrowed something from someone such as a pencil and lost it. I always misplace my belongings and my father always gets upset becuase he says that I am always “daydreaming.”

My Fears and Disappointments

I have always been disapointed because I do not have a male sibling. I have always dreamed of having a younger brother who would play soccer with me and understand me. But when I think about this, I remember that I already have a loving sister that cares about me. Another thing that I have always been disapointed about is about my country. People are always expected to honor their country and be proud about their nationality, but not me. I have disliked Ecuador since I have memory. I have disliked how poor the country is and how uneducated people are. I am not a fan of airplanes. Everyhting about them seems unsafe to me. All those regulations and policies that have to be followed during a flight makes me nervous. I feel as if one of these is broken the plane would nose dive towards hte ground. Every time the plane encounters rough airs, I shut my eyes, sit straight and grab the armrests as hard as I can and wait until everything is over. I do not know why I dread planes, maybe its all those stories I´ve heard about crashes and highjacked planes. 

My Hopes and Milestones

One of my hopes is to some day be independant. I would like to move out of my house and have to do everything for myself becuase I want the freedom to do what I want without being watched or supervised. I always hope this because I would like to do everything on my own, I do not feel safe when I depend on other people’s actions. I hope that some day I will be responsable enough to get a job and earn money so that I can do something useful with my life. I plan to do this by working hard so that I can be self-sufficient.

One of the things that I love to do the most is read. Each time I read a book I feel refreshed as I have been loaded with knowledge and information. One of hte most important milestones in my life is learning how to read. Reading has influenced the way I think and view different things. This experiencies give me the knowledge and lessons that I need in order to grow eah day.